I witnessed a murder

 

 

 

I witnessed a murder
I was at the scene of the crime
I saw the blood, I heard the bullets as they pierced her heart
I didn’t do anything to help her
Thought SHE could fend for her self
The battle was hers, not mine
If SHE was meant to live, would SHE not have survived
She would probably have still been alive today
Clearly that was her time to go
SHE had served her purpose.

They never knew how cool SHE was
Her intellect surpassed them all
A happy character, she was a lot of fun.
SHE came in unannounced with out any notice
I enjoyed her company so I let her stay , SHE didn’t have to ask.
She overstayed her welcome 
When SHE started to change the ambience 
I started feeling a bitter taste of our connection
SHE was illicitly reeking havoc.

SHE wasn’t loud or dramatic
With simple gestures and soft whispers
SHE took over my conscience
SHE wanted to take over
Her intentions were not to be Co-pilot
Nor did she want to fill the vacancy for understudy
SHE overstepped my boundaries
SHE didn’t know her place
So I decided SHE had to go.

I witnessed a murder of a being
That then, was a part of me
I watched as SHE was ripped into pieces
Quickly discarded so no one noticed she was gone
There was only one witness
That witness was the killer

Was I right? Was I wrong?
See I had looked into the crystal ball
didn’t like the ME she would have made me
Didn’t fit into the ME I had seen in the Architects blueprint
So I decided to play a part in altering the way things were going

SHE was lazy, got nothing done
SHE loved shortcuts,
Didn’t appreciate all the hard work I had put in
Nor were our dreams similar.
SHE spoke her mind without any regard
Her words leaving scars and bruised egos
SHE had no timing, without warning …
her bullets slowly minimised all foes and friends alike 

Silent screams of help from me would sometimes stop her in her tracks
I was lonesome, needed a companion
Never had time for auditions so I made a random selection
SHE was the wrong decision 

I murdered her, euthanised her slowly so she felt no pain
At times I feel pain for ending her life so abruptly
But I don’t feel no guilt, not a bit of remorse 
I had to get ME back
So I could fulfil MY purpose
So I erased her from existence
She will never return 
Totally extinct, and u know what…
I couldn’t be more happier.

I tried to help her plenty of times
Told her all things in proportion so pace yourself
Would SHE have ever listened to me?
SHE was enticed by the other life, new acquaintences 
And her role of potential power.
SHE’s not a bad person 
Nor am I a good person, but im trying to be
See that’s the difference between SHE and I
All that’s left of her are memories 
I wont forget SHE , SHE’s a constant reminder of where I shouldn’t be
Ever so often SHE comes to mind
Then I reminisce on the good times we shared
SHE’s not mad is SHE ?
SHE’s in a better place, my minds at ease.

I witnessed a murder
Though I am not a killer
I just did what I thought was right
Cause SHE was not me
I AM ME
The better half of what I almost became 
had she been in existence…

I am not a murderer 
I am ALIVE and I AM ME
NO vacancies for counterfeits